hold up.

wait a minute put a little love in it! hehe, that has nothing to do with my post whatsoever but it's what popped into my head when i wrote that blog title. :D my mind works a little funny!





YWAM is eleven days away. 11. once. elf. onze.


that's so craaaaaaaaazy. it feels like just yesterday i was applying to it. & oh dear i haven't even started the book yet.

my feelings have changed about YWAM a little bit. I'm more excited than i was, maybe because some things here just aren't working out.  ): Maybe because i actually do want to get out and help people even if it means i have to struggle. I am probably the most selfish person you've ever met. Seriously. Most of the time I only think about myself and whether doing something will benefit me. That's the wrong attitude to have. I want to be able to say at the end of my life that i put others first in every situation i possibly could.  Because isn't that what we should be striving for? To be like Jesus and serve others. Isn't that why i decided to do YWAM?  It doesn't mean i'm gonna stop doing some of the things i'm doing now because frankly i just don't want to!


IDK, my life is one crazy, confusing, messed up jumble right now. :D but that's okay with me. i'm learning a lot, especially about who i want to be and what i want to do.


danng. i just love people. a lot. like i FREAKING love people, you really have no idea.  I want to help people whether they're here in PA or in Mexico. i've been sucking at that latley. so i'm sorry i've let you down..


just please please please don't expect me to be perfect.. i'm trying i really am. it's hard ya know?!

comments would be niceee! (: